Thursday, September 21, 2006

Why???????

I am so confused and hurt and humiliated and pissed off. This thing with Wes is just eating at me. It's like he doesn't even know how a married person is supposed to act. I don't know if I have enough energy to teach him. I love him and I know he loves me but I'm foreseeing a lot of problems I didn't expect. And since he refuses to talk about them I don't know how they will ever be resolved. He only ever sent me that one e-mail about what happened. And he was in port (in a different state) and didn't even call me. I know it's because he doesn't want to talk about it. I think I'm going to suggest marriage counseling. I don't want this marriage to end, but I find myself planning on how I'll get out. I hate that feeling. And right now, I hate him for making me feel this way.

3 comments:

Clarity said...

I just caught up with all your entries and I'm so sorry for what you're going through. There's so much I want to say, but I know I don't have the right advice. I just wanted you to know that you're in my thoughts, and I'm truly hoping that things get better soon.

minnie said...

sending big hugs your way. you know i'm here if you need to vent.

Amynda said...

awww hun, i'm so sorry you're feeling like this. if you need me, call me. love you!