Thursday, September 21, 2006
I am so confused and hurt and humiliated and pissed off. This thing with Wes is just eating at me. It's like he doesn't even know how a married person is supposed to act. I don't know if I have enough energy to teach him. I love him and I know he loves me but I'm foreseeing a lot of problems I didn't expect. And since he refuses to talk about them I don't know how they will ever be resolved. He only ever sent me that one e-mail about what happened. And he was in port (in a different state) and didn't even call me. I know it's because he doesn't want to talk about it. I think I'm going to suggest marriage counseling. I don't want this marriage to end, but I find myself planning on how I'll get out. I hate that feeling. And right now, I hate him for making me feel this way.