Tuesday, January 31, 2006
I have a paper due from 2 1/2 years ago that I have got to finish this weekend. It's keeping me from working on pre-lim stuff. Once that is finished, I will feel much better. I have one other incomplete I need to finish, but the professor keeps changing her mind on what she wants me to do. I have to finish the Russian language requirement. That also really worries me. Then, the readings for the pre-lims. I'm going to out-line the previously asked questions, mostly because professors always ask variations of the same question. And I have to write a syllabus. After pre-lims, I have to write a dissertation proposal and defend it. Then I have to go to Russia for a month for research. Then I have to write grant proposals, most of those due in October. I'm moving to VI and getting married, but that will happen in between the Russian trip and the grant proposals.
I also talked to Wes about the stupid Charley dreams. He suggested that maybe I contact him and talk to him, but I don't want to. I'm just going to hope that as time and my new life go on, that he will fade into memory. I don't know why I feel any sort of obligation to him: he obviously didn't feel any towards me. But, I'm going to try not to think about it, and focus on my pre-lims. So now, I'm going to go work on that paper.
Monday, January 30, 2006
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Thursday, January 26, 2006
On another note, I had typed out a nice long blog and then the stupid server went down. And I'm tired, so I'm not doing it again. So, I miss you Camille. I wish you were here.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Speaking of Wes, one of my friends asked me if we were going to start a family right away. This really bothered me. Was she commenting about my age (31) and therefore, the fact that my biological clock must be loud (it's not)? Turns out, that no, that's not what she meant. Had more to do with her current relationship problem and what she wanted out of it, than what I want out of mine. But I realized I should probably brace myself for all those busybodies who are going to ask about our reproductive plans (we're going to go to the mall and steal the cutest kid we see). Now you know and you don't have to ask.
Alright, got to get to all those books. Hope everyone has a happy weekend. If you're bored, let me know and I'll let you read some books for me ;)
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
This is what my sister made me for Christmas. If you can't see them, they say faith, hope and love (it's a Bible verse). She chose those colors because Matisse is my favorite artist. (About five years ago I took her to an exhibit of Matisse and Picasso; thankfully she enjoyed it: it made me feel like a successful big sister). When I got them to my apartment, I looked at them, and liked them so much, that I called her and asked her to make a bunch to be the center pieces at my reception. They will be different sizes and fall colors instead, but they will still say faith, hope and love on them. The best thing, it's about a fourth of the cost of my budget for the center pieces. And, they can double as the wedding favors. I think we'll fill them with real fall leaves and maybe some seed packets or something. My sister is so excited that I asked her to do it, and I have one less thing to worry about.
Thank God school has started!!! Why? Not because I enjoy the stress and the uncomfortable library chairs, which I think are still the originals bought in the 1890s, but because it brings structure to my life. And I need structure. And it's not just me. All the graduate students I talked said the same thing. The strange part: I'm actually only in class 10 hours a week. But, that gets me to campus, and then I stay for 6 to 8 hours a day doing all the other stuff I need to do. Tomorrow I meet my new students. I can't wait. (that last part was utter sarcasm)
I guess that is actually it right now. I was hoping to go shopping yesterday, but I twisted my knee on Sunday, and could barely walk yesterday. Thankfully, it was sore today, but I could walk. Now, it's feeling much better, but I still can't do stairs. I hope it's completely better soon, because I wanted to start swimming this week.
hope everyone is healthy and happy.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Wes is also stressed and frustrated. He is currently working 16 hour days. He hasn't had time to do anything at home. He feels like he's not getting time with his kids. He can't check out wedding spots. And he's usually so tired when he gets home that we talk for less than a half hour before he collapses. He says next week should be the last week like this. I hope so. He starts classes soon too. Unfortunately, he will be at sea during my spring break. That really sucks. But, he should find out today if he gets a couple of weeks in September off. If the answer is yes, I think that will at least put him in a better mood. I know that most of his frustration comes from the fact that I'm not there. Just a little while longer and then I will be.
Thank God for Andrea. She is my matron of honor, and she got married this past summer, so she knows what she is doing. She sends me stuff everyday and has given me some great ideas. I ordered a couple of invitation catalogs yesterday and have started e-mailing places about the wedding and reception. Once school starts, a lot of this will have to be put on hold. I guess that's ok.
I put all my Christmas pictures up on-line yesterday. If anybody is interested, let me know, and I'll e-mail you the link. They're mostly of my nephew and Wes and I. There's some really cute ones of my nephew. He's just adorable!
Alright, it's almost 10 and I haven't done any school stuff yet. Hope you all have a great weekend.
Monday, January 09, 2006
This is what it looked like in Minnesota.
Yes, these pictures were taken during the day. This is the amount of sunshine I have gotten since I returned to Wisconsin almost two weeks ago. Now you all know why I am depressed. At least here, we don't have any snow. But, the snow is pretty. It didn't snow while we were driving, which was good.
On another topic: my mom needs help. My parents have been married for 28 years and my dad calls my mom three times a day. He is obviously in love with her. Yet, all she could do is worry whether my dad is still happy with her and if he will leave her for someone else. She gets all depressed and sad. I think she needs counseling. She has been like this practically since they got married. Now, her first marriage, to my biological sperm donor, did end because he cheated on her, but for heaven's sake, it's been 32 years. Get over it. I just worry about her.
I feel like I have so much to do that I know I don't even know where to start. Today I got groceries and went and spent some of my Christmas money on books, CDs, and DVDs. I got the Postsecret book. I haven't looked at it yet, but I'm excited about it. Tomorrow I'm going to clean my apartment, because then maybe it will be easier to know where to start. School starts in a week, and I haven't done anything: I didn't write a paper, I haven't read any Russian, I didn't work on my dissertation proposal, I didn't read anything for my pre-lims. I feel a bit overwhelmed. Hopefully after tomorrow I'll feel better.
I hope you're all doing well and having fun.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Wedding stuff. We have a budget. Now we just have to make everything fit into it. Not a problem. I thought, that since I originally told Wes "not in a million years" the preacher could start with a joke about how time flies, or something like that. Camille gave me this beautiful purse for Christmas. It's one of those fancy clutch purses with beading all over it. It gave me an idea. I can always put some beads on the dress I get myself, just to make a little more special. Also, as none of you know, John Donne is one of my favorite poets, so I thought about having one of his poems read. How about this one:
I wonder, by my troth, what though and I
Did, till we loved? were we not weaned till then?
But sucked on country pleasure, childishly?
Or snorted we in the Seven Sleepers' den?
'Twas so; but this, all pleasures fancies be;
If ever any beauty I did see,
Which I desired, and got, 'twas but a dream of thee.
And now good-morrow to our waking souls,
Which watch not one another out of fear;
For love all love of other sights controls,
And makes one little room an everywhere.
Let sea-discoverers to new worlds have gone;
Let maps to other, worlds on worlds have shown;
Let up possess one world; each hath one, and is one.
My face in thine eye, thine in mine appears,
And true plain hearts do in the faces rest;
Where can we find two better hemispheres
Without sharp north, without declining west?
Whatever dies, was not mix'd equally;
If our two loves be one, or thou and I
Love so alike that none can slacken, none can die.
Would I be the only one there who would appreciate it?
I need to clean my flat. I thought the cold meds were non-drowsy, but after a second look, they're not. No wonder I slept all day yesterday.
Finally, did I tell you they changed my wonderful radio station into a country music station? Just ask Camille what I think of country music.