Friday, March 31, 2006
I appreciate the fact that I obviously look like I'm six years old to you, otherwise why would you think you could play me, but I don't appreciate the fact that you tried to play me. These papers were due on the 22nd. Today is the 31st. These are not "highly suggested dates" these are "due dates." I e-mailed you to ask you where your paper was because I liked you (notice the past tense). When you e-mailed me back (three days later) giving me some slightly believable story, I decided to give you the benefit of the doubt, mostly because you promised to bring the paper to me on the 27th. Then I didn't get the paper. And we had class twice. And I didn't get any e-mails. Finally, yesterday, you asked me if I had gotten the paper. You claimed you had e-mailed it to me on Monday. This is the second time you made this claim. You said you would go print it out immediately and bring it to my office. I told you I wouldn't accept e-mailed papers, so why didn't you have a hard copy to begin with? Yesterday, I left my office at 5:45p. I did not have a paper. Today, you stopped by my office and tried to give me your paper. I told you I couldn't take it, since today is the 31st and it was due on the 22nd. You acted shocked and horrified. Then you claimed you had e-mailed it to me on Wednesday. Why do you think I'm that stupid? I'm working on my Ph.D. I have 2 MAs and one BA. And, I worked as a bill collector for 7 years. I've heard every story there is to hear. I've made grown men cry. And you think I'm going to believe your pathetic ass story? Think again. I told you I would discuss it with the professor again. I'm not going to. And, I read the paper: you obviously didn't even have the paper topic when you wrote it late last night because it doesn't even address the correct issue. It is an F paper anyway. And, I'm going to let you know that. You better hope your next paper kicks ass, otherwise, I'm going to kick yours.
Sincerely, the best TA in the world,
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
This is a picture of Wes and I in highschool. He's a senior and I'm a junior. Besides the fact that we've both gained weight, and my hair has changed often and in a multitude of ways, we still look the same. He hates this picture. He says he looks like he's trying to pimp me out. Yes, that's a fedora he's wearing and a gold chain. This is the only picture I could find of us from highschool. I thought you could all use a laugh!
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Pre-lims start April third. I still have about 20 books I need to read. I'm hoping to get through those this weekend. I met with the history graduate advisor about the process today. It sounds ok. I'm ready. I'm not even close to being ready. I think the pre-lims will be stressful, but I shouldn't have a huge problem with them. The issue will be my dissertation proposal, which I haven't officially started yet. I need to get one that. Like, a month ago. And I really need to figure out when my research trip is going to be, because I need to buy my plane ticket and start my visa process. Because that only takes forever. I'm exhausted but feel like there's too much to do. I love being a graduate student.
And, I've had three sty's on my left eye since March 5th. I went to the doctor today, because I have never had any eye problems. They're so useful. Let's just say, I'm thankful that health insurance covered it, because it was a waste of time. Although, she did prescribe me an eye cream in case it swells up again. I hope I don't have to use it.
ok, I want to go to bed, but I have to finish this book first. I also have 67 papers I have to grade (not tonight, this weekend). I hope they're better than the mid-terms.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Have a great day, and remember, the zemstvas were not created by Napoleon!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
I have vivid dreams all the time and I usually remember them. I once had a dream that continued in the same place it had left off the night before, for two whole weeks. And I dream about all sorts of stuff (yes, I still have the dream where I can't find where I'm supposed to turn in my papers at the end of the semester and if I don't get there I'm going to fail. No, I'm not naked). Last night, the dream was just weird. As are all my dream where I am in Las Vegas again. And all my Las Vegas dreams take place at the location of the school I went to. So, what was so disturbing? This dream had Charley AND Andrea in it. Will these two never go away? Will they always haunt Wes and I at some subconscious level? Suffice it to say, when the dream ended I didn't know where Wes was and couldn't get a hold of him. I knew he was with Charley, but that was it. And I called Andrea a bitch. That kind of felt good. I don't know why I had this dream. I hate waking up after stuff like that, because now I'm going to feel funny all day.
Although, Andrea did piss me off again. She sent me an e-mail asking me where she should send the wedding gift. (no, that part didn't piss me off). I told her to Wes's, but that we were moving into a different place in May, so she should wait until after that. I mean, we're not having the ceremony until the fall! She e-mailed back: I want his current address now. And I think that was the only line in the e-mail. She can send something, but he's at work for 12 to 14 hours a day almost 6 days a week, so he won't be signing for any packages. Maybe she's thinking she'll just send a gift and then be done with us, which wouldn't be a bad thing.
Today, I am finishing that stupid 20 page paper that has hung over my head for so long because I couldn't figure out what to do, and then did a crappy job at it so I had to do it all over again. I will finish grading some of the mid-terms. I will attempt to write a 7 page paper for one of my other professors, and I will study for the oral exam I am having tomorrow, over what, I'm not quite sure. I hope you all have a great day.
And then, if all that weren't enough, I just saw this story: http://apnews.excite.com/article/20060319/D8GEL0J00.html
Voikovskiia is the metro stop where my friend lives. The metro I took every day this past summer and will take again this summer (if it's fixed). I hope they're ok. I'm going to have to e-mail them.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Today I'm also putting down a deposit on a three-bedroom townhouse here in VA. No, we're not buying, just renting, but it will be a lot bigger, with a garage and small yard. Better for kids and all my stuff. And then when I live here I don't have to listen to the people upstairs talk to their miniature dog in a baby voice: "who's the cutest little dog ever? You're the cutest little dog ever!!! Yes you are. Yes you are." I'm going to kill both of them.
ok, we all know I don't have time to be typing anything, so I must go. Have a great day!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
I have to write a fifteen page dissertation proposal. There will probably be a fifteen page bibliography as well. I have to orally defend this. Then, this summer, since I did receive funding, I will travel to Russia for about a month. I will go to the archives in Moscow and in Samara. There, I will try to figure out what the archives have, and if they'll even let me in. When I return to the states, I will fill out several grant proposals, so I can receive funding for Fall 2007, to return to Russia for 9 months. After that research trip (in which I live in the archives and libraries), I write the dissertation: it has to be approximately 300 pages long. Now, doesn't that sound easy?!?
Meanwhile, I have to find time to visit my elderly grandparents, move to Virginia, and plan a wedding and a honeymoon. After all this, things will settle down considerably. Part of that is because Wes is being deployed in Nov. for six months. Just the way you want to start your marriage out: by not seeing one another. He'll be gone for the entire month of September as well.
So, this is why I'm slightly stressed out. And I should actually get back to my homework.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Saturday, we drove to NC to visit his kids. Wes's son had a soccer game. He was really good. Then we took the kids out to eat. They (and his ex) don't know that we're married yet. Since we're still planning on having a ceremony in the fall, we'll just let them think that is it. The kids were great and we had a good time. When we drove them home they kept pointing out all the houses that were for sale, so they could just walk over to visit us every day. I only wish it were that easy.
Yesterday, we went to church. The church Wes goes to is right across the street, and the weather was beautiful, so we just walked. I liked it, although, I always have a hard time making friends, so the thought of meeting new people scares me. The rest of the day, we did some shopping, and just hung out, watched TV and eat. It was wonderful to just be able to hang out. And to have sex. I think it's going to be a good week.
I found out I passed my Russian reading exam. However, my advisor kept telling me I would receive funding through the department to go to Russia this summer. Lately she hasn't said anything about it. I need to e-mail her to find out, because if I'm not going to Russia, I would move here sooner. Wes is working this entire week, and you should see how much work I brought. I really need to get it all done too. It's going to be a busy week, but at least I get to spend it with my husband.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Yesterday I had my Russian reading exam. I don't know how I did yet. She said she would e-mail me in a couple of days. Russian is tricky because it has no articles and it doesn't have the verb "is". Therefore, you usually translate and then go back and "clean up." I didn't have time to clean everything up, but I understood what was going on, so I hope I did ok. I forgot to ask her about funding for this summer though. If I'm not getting funding to go to Russia, then I'm going to move to be with my husband sooner. When she e-mails me about the exam I'll ask her then.
Half of my flowers haven't bloomed yet. I leave on Friday for a week. But, there are a total of 9 lilies and almost five are open. They're beautiful. I think I'm allergic to them. I can't breath. Don't tell my husband though. Also, this is a great country. Today, from the comfort on my own house, I requested to have my mail held. Isn't that great! I didn't even have to shower!
Ok, I have about 4 more hours of homework I want to get done tonight, and it's already 8:15p. Just ask Camille, I'm not a night person, and I'm usually in bed by 10:30p. But, since I'm leaving on Friday, I have to get all this crap done. Oh, I meant all this highly intellectual reading and writing. And, tomorrow is my mom's birthday and I forgot to send her a card, although she already found her birthday present that I left there at Christmas time. I hope she likes them.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
These are the beautiful flowers my wonderful husband sent me. It was wonderful to get home today, after 4 1/2 hours at the library, and see them. Everytime I finish reading something, I look at them again. It's now 9:30p. I was hoping to read three more articles tonight, but I don't think I'll manage to get to all three. Tomorrow I want to clean my apartment, get groceries, do the laundry, write a paper (I need the articles for that) and work on that long paper, the one that was originally due 2 1/2 years ago. I leave on Friday to see Wes for a full week. That will be wonderful. But I have so much stuff to do before then, and while I'm there. Pre-lims begin April 3rd. I don't think anyone can ever be well enough prepared. But I also want to do better than just good enough. I want to prove I know my stuff. I think I can do that.
On another note, Andrea and I have reverted to an e-mail only relationship. Well, she calls, I don't answer and then e-mail later instead of calling her back. We'll see how that goes.
Well, I need to get at least one more article read tonight. Hope everyone is having a slightly more exciting weekend than I am.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
50%Your sloan type is SLOANYour primary type is Organized
You are moderately social, moderately moody, organized, moderately accommodating, and moderately intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits.
The largest representation of your personality type can be found in the these U.S. cities: Charlotte, Harrisburg, Cleveland, Memphis, Cincinnati, Kansas City, Dallas/Ft. Worth, Richmond, Philadelphia Area, Greenville/Spartanburg, Reno, Indianapolis and these international countries/regions Luxembourg, Bulgaria, Ukraine, Turkey, Taiwan, Iceland, Hong Kong, South Korea, Portugal, Philippines, India, Guam, Canada, England, Indonesia, Japan
The most ironic thing about this: Dallas /Fort Worth are listed. I hate Dallas. I lived there for 14 years. I should, however, add that I did take advantage of the museums, Shakespeare in the Park, zoos, Symphonies (on occasion) and other intellectual things. And as far as the International countries, as all Russian historians know, the Ukraine is technically part of Russia, so therefore, that would be my first choice.
So, the birthday went fine. Received lots of cards, phone calls, and e-mails. My father-in-law sent me a beautiful card about how happy he was that I was a part of the family and how he can't wait to get to know me better. My husband sent me a beautiful bouquet of flowers and said that I also have a gift waiting for me when I visit. He also said he'll make me a cake when I get there. Overall, the day went well.
Ok, ton of stuff to do before pre-lims. That's going to be my new mantra.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Meanwhile, back at the batcave. I will be getting very little sleep over the next month. Preliminary exams start on April 3rd. I still have WAY too much to read before then. And I haven't even started typing my dissertation proposal. And I have to write a syllabus too. My Russian language exam is Monday. I'm worried and not worried. I kind of feel like there is nothing I can do but work on my Russian.
Ok, that's about it. I need to get started for the day. I hope everyone has a good one!