Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Moral dilemma

This is not really what I had in mind for the new year. I thought I'd get a job, pay off some bills, visit my husband in some far of place, learn a new hobby, connect with friends, old and new, and just generally become a better me. Instead I have to make a very hard choice.

My grandpa is in ICU. The doctor gave him less than a week to live. He is old (84) and feeble which greatly limits what they can do (no surgery, no paddles, and they can't even feed him at this point). I can't actually go visit right now because I have the sinus infection from hell (the dr, looking into my ear, "wow, that must really hurt!"). But hopefully, within a few days, the anti-biotics will kick in. So what's the dilemma?

My husband called today and wants me to fly out to see him. He did call back and say it would be a couple of days before he knew for sure, but if I can, he wants me to leave immediately. See my dilemma? I don't want to miss my grandpa's funeral (yes, I know he's not dead yet, but let's be realistic), but I want to see my husband too. And this would be the only time I could visit my husband while he's gone. My grandma already knows that if something happened to my grandpa I would come out there for about a month to take care of her. And that I could do either way. I'm sure this will work itself out, I just wish it wasn't something I had to worry about now. And if I visit Wes and my grandpa dies, I won't be getting a job anytime soon. But family comes first. It always has and it always will.

Here's hoping that no one else's new year started off this way.

1 comment:

minnie said...

oh honey i'm so sorry! i hope it all works itself out.