Thursday, February 16, 2006

When it rains

it pours. Or, I have seriously pissed off some gods and I don't know how to fix it. Which of the bad news do you want first? We'll start with the bad and pathetic but I'll get over it. That paper that I was working on and turned in before I went to see Wes. The one I had to finish because it was due 2 1/2 years ago and I have to finish all my incompletes to pre-lim. The one that was keeping me from reading my pre-lim lists. Well, my professor wants to re-write it. It's not good enough. So, once again, I'll be spending large quantities of time, time I don't feel like I have, working on this paper. I'm going to be getting a lot less sleep for the next 6 weeks. I guess it's good Wes isn't here, because I get really pissy when I'm tired. My computer screen is also really dark. If it goes out, I will be so screwed, since as a student, it is my life.

The really bad news. Wes leaves for 6 months deployment this November. He was supposed to go next July, 2007, which would have worked well, because I am leaving for Russia in August 2007, so we would be gone at the same time. Now, he will miss Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's, our first anniversary, Valentine's Day, my birthday. Then when I leave, I'll miss our Sep. anniversary, Thanksgiving, I'm planning on coming home for Christmas, but I'll miss our second official anniversary, Valentine's Day, my birthday, and should be home by July. Basically, over the next two years, the first two years of our marriage, we'll only be together for 6 months. This is going to be hard. But, on a good note, I will probably be able to see him next month, for a weekend. That's good. I'll take that, for now.

Wes is so sweet though. Last night, he asked if Andrea had "come to her senses yet and called and apologized." No, she hasn't, and no, she won't. I have decided I'll send her a birthday e-mail tomorrow and then try to let things fade after that.

Finally, I need some opinions. As most of you know, I don't want to ever be pregnant. I want to be a mom and I plan on adopting one or two kids, but I never want to push a baby out of my body. As a result, Wes wants to get snipped. I have mixed feelings about this. What do you guys think. If I say yes, he wants to do it asap so we don't have to worry about pesky birth control the few times we get to see each other.

ok, on to that paper.


minnie said...

that's some tough news. i'm sorry hon. you guys were meant to be together though, so i know that you'll get thru the tough times.

as far as the snipping goes, that's a tough call. if you know 150% that you don't ever want to have biological kids, and wes is totally ok with it (as it sounds he is) then i say go ahead.

if there's even a little bit of doubt, then i'd say hold off.

however, remember that this is coming from someone who does want to have kids, so i may not be that objective. lol

Queen of Ass said...

I think if you're positive, let Wes do it. And enjoy life without the birth control problem.

And good call on the Andrea thing.

Bart's Camille said...

I would not have him snipped. I know that you are positive right now that you don't want to have a biologic child, but you just never can tell and you should have that option open to you. You have the ability as well as the right to change your mind. Speaking from someone that has to "worry about that pesky birth control" thing ALL the time... not such a big deal.

I'm really sorry about your paper and about the whole scheduling thing with Wes. I feel bad for you both. What could you do differently? Is it possible to wait to go to Russia? i love you girl... Hang in there.